Today after trying to get ready with two little ones clinging to my skirt in the closet I left them with an unfamiliar babysitter feeling guilty.

Only I was leaving to go see my son’s first piano recital. I was feeling guilty knowing I’d feel bad if I didn’t go.

Basically, I was surrounding myself in guilt.

I turned on KCRW and heard this song, “Late Night” by Foals and I just kept turning it up louder and louder. Smiling at the irony but also really enjoying the song.


Late Night by Foals

Oh, I hoped that you were somebody,
someone I could count
to pull me to my feet again,
when I was in doubt.

Oh now Mama, do you hear me
calling out your name?
Oh now Mama, do you hear me
calling out your name?

Calling out your name?

Now I’m the last cowboy in this town.
Empty veins and my plastic, broken crown.

They said I swam the sea then ran aground.
They said I once was lost, but now I’m truly found.

And I know the place but not the wave.
I feel, I feel no shame.
Oh now Mama, do you hear my fear?
It’s coming after me!

Calling out your name!
Calling out your name!

Stay with me.
Stay with me.

Then you threw your heart away.
Oh I know just what to say.
Through the phone cord; it can wait.
We’ve still got time to say.

And I know you ran away.
Oh I know but I’m feeling okay.
But now I found love and the feeling wont go.
Now I found love but the feeling wont go!
See you walk away!
Feeling okay, now!
Happy now?

Stay with me!
Stay with me!
Stay with me!
Stay with me!