My Child Took Over When I Needed Him Too

This afternoon I took my three kids to Descanso Gardens.


It was a particularly gorgeous Los Angeles day. Cool, some clouds, sun and the gardens in bloom.

The grounds were spectacular.

My kids roamed and fell into their imaginations. I wondered if I coddled my 7 1/2 year-old boy too much as I sat on a bench waiting for my 2 1/2 year-old to finish her pretzels.

I wanted to freeze time as I look at my two sons bent over brilliant, shining, green grass looking at something they had found. Their two heads touching as they squatted, almost forming a heart.

Towards when it was time to go I could feel my heart acting funny. I have the most common SVT called AVNRT.

My heart can go from a resting rate to 150 and upwards all the sudden out of nowhere.

I suddenly started to feel “funny” and I know that “funny” feeling means my heart my go.

When my heart does go it doesn’t me that anyone has to call 911 but I have been told I might pass out. That scares me because I don’t want anyone to call an ambulance. I have an hour to convert my heart.

My littlest had to go to the bathroom. I looked at my oldest boy and said, honey, my heart is being funny I need you to take her in and take care of her. Really, he asked?

I looked over at a now vacant bench that was filled with two adults moments before.

Just me and the kids and my about to die phone.

I can’t concentrate 100% when I start to feel funny because my nerves kick in and sometimes I feel light headed. I didn’t have my purse with me, with my medication so I quickly texted my husband.

What delighted me while waiting for my husband and doing some things to calm my heart was overhearing my oldest step into the shoes he needed to fill.

That of a mature child knowing his mom, really needed help at that moment.

At one point, he said, mom, seriously the toilet is so big, it made me laugh, just lift her up I said, then I heard her tell him she had a weiner and I laughed a bit more.

I listened to their conversation outside of the stall I had locked myself in to take some deep breaths and rest my head against the wall.

I heard my middle child running back and forth.

I giggled too at how normally my oldest would never do this as he’s grossed out very easily.

The laughter along with his on-set of maturity at a time I needed him to be made me feel calmer as I waited for my husband to arrive with my medication.

Turns out he was yelling my name into another bathroom at Descanso when he arrived because my phone died. People were staring. More reason to laugh.

Once we were all collected as a family and my heart was normal and I had some meds I told my oldest, don’t worry honey, if that happens the worst that can happen is that I will pass out.


Then, what do I do, he asked.

You call dad. I began to explain how to use my phone and then he suddenly blurted out, I need a bank account and then bounded off to chase his younger brother, slipping into the role of care free child.

I was proud of my little guy taking over for me when I needed him to, albeit if only for a few minutes.
Curious if any of you have SVT? I haven’t found many women my age with it. Have you had an ablation? Do you take beta-blockers.

Anna Bocci West Launces Orange Drive West

Anna Bocci West is a mom living in Los Angeles who is a working actor.


We were lucky enough to have her in our Burbank show. She has recently broadened her artistic path and has launched a design blog called Orange Drive Design.




She will be continuing her acting career as well but she has been loving working on home interiors, especially working along side her husband Joel. She is enjoying being in more control of her work and to be able to be creative in another way.

You can follow Orange Drive Design on Instagram and Pinterest!


Spotlight on Smora

Smora is a natural skin care company started by  Midwest sisters Robyn and Christa Raskowski. I reached out to Robyn and Christa to see if they would be interested in giving some of their product away to all of our film-goers this Sunday, they said yes! Read about the women and their new company below.





How did you come up with the idea of Smora?

I took a class for fun years ago on how to make ones own body care products at home.  I really enjoyed learning about all of the natural ingredients and started making some products for myself to use. I gave a few of the items I made to Robyn to try as well.  We both liked knowing exactly what ingredients we were using on our skin. Robyn started doing a lot of research about natural body care products and we started developing our own recipes to make exactly what wanted.  We started telling a few friends what we were doing and they wanted to try our products as well.  Our friends really liked the items we made and kept coming back for more. A couple of years ago Robyn and I started more serious conversations about bringing the skin care we make to a wider audience by selling our line. We decided if we were to do it, we were jumping all in. After a year of cooking in Robyn’s kitchen, we launched Smöra in November of 2013.


Sisters Robin and Christa. Photo credit: Sioux Falls Argus Leader.
Sisters Robin and Christa. Photo credit: Sioux Falls Argus Leader.



You and your sister live in different cities, right? How do you find time to collaborate?

Yes, Robyn lives in Sioux Falls, South Dakota and I live in Minneapolis, Minnesota. When do we NOT collaborate? Ha! No, really we talk everyday about Smöra over email, texts or phone calls. At one point we started shipping everything to Robyn’s home to streamline the ingredients as it became too difficult to cook in multiple locations with the quantity of the supplies. After shows when we are running low on product, I will drive to Sioux Falls about every third weekend for “cook weekends”.  Robyn is constantly making soap as it takes about six weeks to cure. (We joke that we should really purchase a RV and cook it Breaking Bad style in the middle.) 😉


How long have you been working on Smora?

Officially for about two years.

Do you have other jobs outside of Smora? 

Yes, we both work full time. Robyn is a School Psychologist in the Harrisburg school district outside of Sioux Falls and is finishing her PhD dissertation. I work as a Neuroscience Research Coordinator at the University of Minnesota. We both have Psychology and Studio Art backgrounds.




What type of marketing have your used?

We have done all of our marketing through social media and word of mouth.


Where can we buy Smora?

Smöra is available for purchase on Etsy at We had a launch party in Sioux Falls and just had an open house sale in Minneapolis. We continue to book live open house shows to introduce the products to people who haven’t used them before or who want to try our products.




What is Smora?

Smöra is the Swedish word for “buttering”, which was inspired by our Swedish heritage and the use of shea butter in many of our products. In addition to shea, we use all-natural ingredients like cocoa butter, argan oil, jojoba oil, and beeswax. You won’t find synthetic colors or fragrances in our products. Instead we use ingredients from nature like clays and plant-based materials to add color and concentrated essential oils to add fragrance, both of which adding beneficial properties to the products as well. The line includes body butters, lotion bars, lip balms, a tinted lip balm, a healing balm, face oil, beard oil, sea salt scrubs and a variety of soaps.

Photo Credit: USA Today.
Photo Credit: USA Today.


Good luck ladies and a big thank you for sponsoring our first official ExMo Meet Up this Sunday!


Future ExMo Meet Ups

We are receiving a lot of great interest in our ExMo meetups.


If you have a great idea, want to offer up your business or home for the next meet up email us at

We are looking for fun ideas and excuses to get like minded, creative moms together.


If you are a business, perhaps you just want to get people to you space. Contact us!

Our screening this Sunday still has tickets available and don’t forget our book club discussion coming up in Hollywood at 9:30AM on April 1st to discuss “The Big Disconnect.”


Sunday Night’s Screening Just Got Even More Fun

Our screening of Mary Trunk’s “Lost In Living” is this Sunday.


For just $8 you’ll get food sponsored by Daphne’s Greek Cuisine, appetizers from Pretzel Crisps, the film, a chance to ask the director a question or two, wine and a gift from Smora.

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And you’ll get to see MommyTonk perform two new songs of theirs!

Enter under this sign, The Lillian.
Enter under this sign, The Lillian.

Buy your ticket here.

New Video: “Earthquake With Kids”

We had a sizable shake this morning in Los Angeles.

I couldn’t help but whip out the iPhone and make this video titled:

“Earthquake With Kids”

Spotlight on Our Graphic Designer: Agnete Oernsholt

Agnete Oernsholt is a former neighbor and a present and always great friend. She’s a tall, beautiful Dane who is very frank and I love that about her.

Agnete on the left. Me pregnant and on the right.
Agnete on the left. Me pregnant and on the right.

She was so supportive of Expressing Motherhood in the early days.

Agnete doesn't always look this way. She did this for Halloween. Gorgeous!
Agnete doesn’t always look this way. She did this for Halloween. Gorgeous!

Telling me that it was imperative to have good graphics.

Her husband, a director, actually hand wrote our logo one sunny LA afternoon shirtless in their backyard. I traded with Agnete. I would have her beloved daughter over and watch her while she played with me son. Agnete would do our graphics!

Lately Agnete has been getting so much work Jessica has been doing our artwork, yeah Jess!

But we are forever grateful to Agnete for making us look big even before we were big. Not that we’re that big but you know what I mean.

Here is a great video, in Danish, I don’t understand a word but you can see lovely Agnete at her home. You can even see the backyard that her husband created our logo in.

Great work Nete, we love you, even when you boss us around. xo

Click HERE to watch the video. I couldn’t figure out how to embed it before school ends. Below is video of her talking about designing for Akbar.



Keep In Touch So You’ll Know About the Next Show

Today I went and visited a friend and our daughters played while we chatted.

When is your next show, she asked. It just ended a few weeks ago, I responded.

What?! I thought it was in May.

I apologized and said, not sorry, I feel like I tell everyone about it so much on Facebook….turns out she’s not on Facebook.

Like her even more now.

If you are interested in knowing when our next show will be please join our email list, we don’t email often. Or like us on Facebook, I’m more active there.

This is the first time, since the show has started that I have taken such a break from it. By a break I mean 4 whole weeks or maybe 3 of now planning the next show.

I’ve been so obsessed with Expressing Motherhood since 2008. 

Our first show in 2008.
Our first show in 2008.

Right now though I’m trying to alleviate some stress at my house. Contemplate if I need to put my creative endeavors and desires towards something new, of course I’ll always produce and direct ExMo, I frigging love it people.

Trying out new graphics while playing with my oldest.
Trying out new graphics while playing with my oldest.


I have intentionally not gone a traditional path and I guess I’m continuing to do so. But I’ll slate another show for the Fall in a month or so, stay tuned.

Take a look at our ExMo Meetups. I’m feeling the push to not constantly look at my iPhone and look more at my kids. I’m in the mood for face to face conversations. I’d rather ignore my kids while talking to someone in the flesh versus tweeting. Anyways, the meetups should prove to be fun and interesting.


Many thanks to your support. This show feeds my sanity. Thanks for being a part of that.



ExMo Meetups Coming Up: A Movie & A Book

Los Angeles can be a complex city.

I know lots of great moms but we all live all over.

I’m determined to save my sanity and hang out with other creative LA moms so we are started ExMo Meetups. Expressing Motherhood has always had a great community offline and I want to  meet up now in small, intimate groups and hang with the fabulous people I’ve met via the show.


Even if you’ve never been in a show, this could be a great chance to meet creative, open, LA moms.

This month we will be having a screening. Read about it here.

Next month we will be discussing the book “The Big Disconnect” over breakfast in Hollywood.

Tickets are on sale now for both events.